Fighting God.

The title of this is actually the title of the sermon that has brought me to this post.

Where to begin is what i'm not really sure of, because there is so much on my heart that i feel needs to be said.

Suppose i'll begin with a basic overview of the sermon.

Basically it was talking about how we have these "plans" laid out for our lives that we want to fall into place EXACTLY how we made them, no matter what! However, when God changes those plans we are very quick to say "no, God, not gonna do it." or whine about it saying "thats not fair God, why do You have to be so mean."  It went onto say that our plans for our lives will NEVER bring about blessings. ONLY OBEDIENCE to GOD'S PLANS for our lives will! And we have to run astray from the plans we have made and be obedient to His plans, no matter how tough it may be!

This sermon was preached a week ago from this past sunday. It was one of those sermons that you walk away thinking "that is JUST what i needed" and it allowed God to REALLY get ahold of your heart on a variety of things. One thing in particular God REALLY spoke to me on. 

During worship, before the sermon, i was really asking God to focus my heart and show me what i needed to be shown, and especially in a certain situation. That situation being things going on at home. One that has been a real burden on my heart for a while but never really fully sank in and bugged me until July. Basically, I couldn't recall the last time I heard from EITHER of my parents "I Love You." I always was aware of it, but one day in Ecuador was when it was REALLY tough. I had called my mom and it would be the only time i would be able to talk to her until i got home, which she was fully aware of. I couldn't recall the last time she told me she loved me, even at the airport leaving she didn't, and in all reality it could have been the last time she EVER saw me. I talk to her for not even one minute before i have to go and i prayed and hoped she would say those three words, considering it could quite likely be the last time she ever spoke to me. She didn't. and it killed me inside. 

Once i got back from Ecuador it really was a big burden on my heart. Especially because adults who aren't even family tell me they love me all the time. It was something constantly in my prayers, that God would bring about change in that situation. 

Quite recently I have been struggling living at home, and I thought of all the ways to move. Doors opened that seemed AWESOME for me to move out, and the more i prayed about it, the more i knew it was NOT God's will. THAT bugged the HECK outta me! I feel like i'm living under a roof with a bunch of strangers!

During this sermon God REALLY laid on my heart that i couldn't keep following MY plan of getting out of here, and avoiding the situation He had put me in and i needed to just lay the issue at His feet and allow HIM to take care of it, because after all, He is in control, and it is HIS PLAN, NOT MINE!

I prayed that God would allow me to not fight the situation i am in and trust Him to pull me through it and see the situation to the end to come out for the best according to His will.

NOT EVEN three hours later, i was in Joann's Fabric/Craft Store just browsing around and i get a phone call from my mom. She was just checkin up on what i was doing today,ect. When it came time to hang up the phone she said those three words i hadn't heard in God only knows how long! Standing by the back wall of fabric at joanns I was in such shock I hung up the phone and almost started bawling. It was a HUGE answered prayer and my surrender to God's plan not even three hours prior i felt had a BIG role in this!

THEN: This past sunday, a week later, I had just left Impact(church thing) and typically if i'm alone in my car after church or a church type function, i'll turn on KLTY sing a song or two then turn it off and just pour my heart out to God. My car is my "happy place" to talk to God, i guess you could call it. ITs odd, yes, but true. I had just got done talking to my mentor about different things and she was advising me to just lay it ALL at God's feet;which i knew, just hadn't done in full. Just as i had done with the specific thing the prior sunday. Once again i did, and not just with my family situation but, with EVERY THING. I kid you NOT even 10 minutes prior to that in depth conversation with God, i get a call from my dad. This was probably one of the first conversations we have had in a LONG time that didn't have ANY sort of negativity in it. And in addition to that, before he hung up i heard him say "night sweetie, love you." As i am typing this i am beginning to tear up at the significance of this all. I could NOT believe my ears. I had to hold back the tears because i was driving and it was dark and rainy and did NOT wanna wreck. But it was SUPER emotional and i could NOT praise God enough for it! 

Basically, I'm trying to say that the statement "Your plan for your life will NOT bring about blessings, but obedience to God's plan WILL bring about blessings" is SO true. I never imagined God to work like that, and that quickly after surrendering obedience to HIS PLAN. I was overwhelmed with His power and love; still am. 

It is such a blessing to be loved by a God who does things like this and at time LEAST expected!!

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Realization-gotta love...readdd itt(:

Over-analyzing.

Ok so yes i have a problem with over-analyzing certain situations, or things..well more like EVERYTHING! Sometimes it gets me in trouble, cause i worry WAY too much and think the worst possible outcomes and DONT stay positive. But then sometimes it brings me to an odd point of realization sorta of an "ah hah" moment that really puts me in awe of God. 

Where to start...

During Summer of 2008 I got on a REALLY rocky path. Got into somethings I shouldn't have and KNEW they weren't the "wise thing to do" yet I still fell to the devil's temptations and carried out with them. After I had carried out the actions I had, I felt MISERABLE. I had just done something(drinking alcohol) i promised myself i would NEVER do, at least not until i was of age and wouldn't allow it to proceed to drunkenness. Well obviously that promise i broke. I continued to beat myself up over it, and ran FAR from God because i was ashamed of what i had done. And i didn't really realize i have been saved by Christ because of sin, like this that we can no avoid even though i knew it. I was and still am a baby Christian. At that point in time i had been a Christian for just a year and was very susceptable to the "old way of life." Even though before I surrendered my life to Christ, i had moral values that were based of Christianity. After the week of "partying" i guess you could call it i FINALLY realized "dang i SCREWED UP." But as i said above, i RAN FAR. When in all reality i should have drawn nearer. For many many months i couldn't understand WHY i did the things i did and God allowed me to do so. I got to the point where i didn't go to church for at least 3 months. I'm the kind of girl that doesn't miss a sunday even if i'm in bed SICK as can be! So that was VERY rare for me. I was NOT in the word and can't recall a time during the 3 months after the rebellion that i even prayed. And now looking back on that, i ask myself "how was i so ignorant to NOT draw near to him." After my mentor at the time had found out about the downfall, she was VERY upset with me. And the following day decided that she did not need to be my mentor any longer. That was ROUGH. She'd been there ever since i had accepted Christ and now for her to kick me to the curb because i'm a sinner did NOT make sense at all! I was at Denton Bible at that time. I would say i'm trying to find a new church, but in all reality, i was just on a rebellion however didn't want to face the truth of that. I had found a church i thought was where God wanted me but after more visits and prayer i knew with all my heart it wasn't. It bugged me not to have a "church family." By oh the end of September, early October i began to get things right with God. Different things happened in my life that slowly drew me back to Him. Around November i visited FBC Prosper. I knew there was something different there than at any other church i had been to. A few more visits and lots of prayer i KNEW that's where God was calling me to. This past January i proceeded with the act of Baptism and became a member. I love my church family. I feel SO comfortable around them. I don't feel as though i have to hide truths from my past to be accepted and i can be completely honest with each and every person i'm doing life with at the church. God REALLY got ahold of my heart in December, more than EVER before. Things started happening that unless i drew near to Him i would NOT have gotten through to this day and would still be struggling with greatly. These various events and trials brought me to many realizations. Several months ago i felt God was calling me to ministry. Where in the ministry i was unaware. I really began praying about it and showing Him the desires of my heart but put His will FIRST. At one point i specifically started praying that "God, if Your will is for me to be in the ministry, please open doors that clearly show me, 'cate this is where I am calling you to."  Shortly after i started praying that specifically a door was opened. I was given the opportunity to travel to Quito, Ecuador to share the gospel with people who quite possibly had NEVER heard of Jesus! About 2 weeks after that ANOTHER door was opened. The lead pastor at my church came to me and asked me to start praying about being apart of the missions team at church. Right there it was sorta a "whoah now! Was that prayer REALLY just answered THAT quickly?" I continued to pray about it and especially that God would slowly show me His will, especially in Ecuador. I knew my call was to Missions in quite a dangerous area of Quito, Ecuador called La Paz while standing in a road up this hill where i shared the gospel with this group of 7 women. It was so overwhelming! As well as the call to missions being revealed to me, God has opened doors for me to serve in ways i NEVER imagined being capable to! I'm now a 6th grade leader and God is using me to pour my life into those girls so out of them hearing my testimony and applying it in ways to their lives He will be glorified! It is SO exciting! How this relates to my poor decision of drinking is:

Because of the poor decision i made God brought about something that has been and continues to be an absolute blessing. This is because of my decision different things took place that called me to a different church where i was put to different trials and learned how to pull through them and doors were opened to a whole new chapter of my life. My dad always says "something good will come out of all this bad" I never believed him fully. I think it was because i had gone through bad for SO long i had forgotten what good looked like in life. As i was over-analyzing every single thing that had occurred over the past 2 years or so, i saw that if i hadn't made that unwise decision i quite possibly wouldn't be where i am now, at least not here the way i got here. I wouldn't have friendships i cherish with certain people, and i would still have a lot of life lessons i would not have learned. I thought it was so crazy how one dumb decision, such as drinking alcohol in this situation could make such a LARGE impact on my life. At first negative impact but in the end brought about good. 

Totally random but i needed to get it written down and was curious of peoples opinions. 

I will lift His name on high!!

woohoo(:

so pumped up for 3 weeks from TODAY!!! that being the day i leave for Ecuador to share the love of Christ! God has shown me and taught me SO much in just this past month. I knew raising $1850 for the trip to Ecuador wouldn't be easy, and i most definitely couldn't do it without God. I kept telling myself to not stress, just put my faith in Him that He would provide if it was His will for me to travel to Ecuador. He has most definitely provided and used certain people as vessels i never imagined He would use! It has been such an awesome and growing experience as i prepare for this trip. I'm currently only $300 away, and am sure God is going to provide it, just have to put my faith in Him! He has already shown me it is His will and that is SO exciting to me. I still don't see the reality of it though. The reality that in 3 weeks i will be boarding a plane and traveling to a third world country where i'll get to share my testimony in a place outside of my comfort zone. I know God has already begun to set up divine appointments for when i travel there and i can't wait to let Him shine through me for the Ecuadorians to see His love!

Now on a not so great note>>>i recently found out that i will have to begin driving to Plano once a week to recieve allergy shots. Not sure for how long, but for quite a while. 

On a better note>>>at this point in time, no immnodeficiency has been discovered and the doc is almost positive i do not have one.

oh another not so great thing>>>>my immunologist at Southwestern wants me to see a Rheumatologist. This is quite scary because i do have many symptoms of RA and they are getting worse, and its been talked about in the past.

I pray that God will continue to heal my body and keep me healthy. Answered prayers continue to occur, and its truly a blessing! I've been healthy for at least 3 months now and its such an incredible feeling!

I'm so thankful for my amazing church family who has been such a great support through all of this! They are SUCH a blessing. I'm so glad to be a part of such a wonderful body of Christians(:

well off to bed soon!

happy red,white and blue dayyy!!!

night!

ECUADOR 2009!!!!!

AHH SO EXCITED to see all God is gonna do!
So last post i had mentioned something bout possibly going to Ecuador for a mission trip if i got the $1000 by june 5th. Well God did something totally amazing and i praise Him with ALL i have for it! So thursaday, june 4th i was $450 short of the amount i needed the next day by about 3pm for my plane ticket and to confirm i was going. if i didn't have the grand by then i wasn't going. And i knew and prayed that if it was God's will for me to go, somehow He'd provide the money. Well i had put as my facebook status that night before bed "Cate is trusting God that somehow He will provide the $450 i need by 3 pm to go to Ecuador on a mission trip." i didn't try to think of any alternate ways to come up with the money, i knew if i didn't have it, it was NOT God's Will for me to go. So i wake up to my brother wanting to see my teeth without braces at about 8am. I then check my phone and see a text message from the lead pastor at my church saying basically a man had given my lead pastor a check for me for $450 at the friday morning men's bible study! i couldn't believe it! Ends up my pastor had seen the status and mentioned it and they had prayed about it at the bible study. God is SO GREAT! I'm SO thankful for that donation. And honestly i don't even know the person. I know the name but don't know them. I knew it was God's will for me to go, and He is going to do something AWESOME there! The trip is July 25-31st and i'm so excited...i still have $850 to raise, but i'm sure God will provide it somehow, He provided the amount to reserve my spot and i'm sure He will provide again!
i love this...God is so awesome!

SO Excited GOD IS SO GREAT!

ok so first off>>broke my macbook with my cell phone..that is no joke..totally serious..i have the WORST luck with cell phones...

secondly>>>God has opened the door for me to go on a Mission Trip to Ecuador with NEXT Worldwide from July 25th-31st!! i am So excited...i'd been praying for God to open the door for a trip if it was His will! And the door was opened! it was actually opened to two, one to Honduras with my church, but its mostly adults. So when i was telling my mentor who happens to be the wife of the president of NEXT she called up her husband and they got me on a trip with teens! I was also told i needed $1000 by JUNE 5th! that sorta in a way stressed me out at first but then i got in my mode i should've been in all along...the "if i don't get the money its obviously NOT God's will for me to go on this specific trip" the exact thing i've been telling my best friend collin who's going to Austria this summer with Denton Bible Church. Well this past monday night i stayed up till 2 am finishing my support letters and addressing them and sealing em...i go to the post office first thing tuesday morning and mail them. One of them i kept though to hand deliver...this gets so awesome! I babysit every tuesday night for the Episcopal Church in Propser. I don't and have never attended there, i'm at FBC Prosper. Well the Priest there had told me the previous week to bring him a support letter when it came time to send them out...so i brought it to him and he then goes to his office and walks out with the 'return' envelope with a check. I go put it in my car just totally in awe of how God works...this being a church i DONT attend! I get in my car to put it up and being the curious and anxious person i am i open the envelope to see how much it was...right then and there i as i saw it i bowed my head thanking God. It was a $100 check. Praise GOD! it hadn't even been 10 hrs since i sent out my letters and i was already a TENTH of the way to where i needed to be by june with! That right there made me think that it really is God's will for me to go. This week has been fantastic...got to meet with my sweet sweet mentor and had a wonderful time...got to see my bestie i NEVER see! And God is working in my life SO much! I LOVE IT! the only possibly bad part of the week was haha actually sorta funny...i was at my Noriss were there and Noriss was doing some safety presentation that day for the little kids...my mom had gotten Jason's Deli ordered for us...well basically turns out i accidentally took and ate half of the captians sandwich instead of MY sandwich which had MAYO on it which he HATES..hahah me of all people would eat the police captains lunch...i felt SO bad..he was nice bout it thankfully.hhahah

OHH and i'm officially a high school GRADUATE as of like almost 3 weeks ago!

hehehe

loves it

night

Senior Share Night>>Impact

Senior Share Night is two weeks from today at Impact, a local church type thing on monday nights where i live for high school students. 

Now i've really been praying on what i want to share and what scripture to put along with it. Right now i'm almost dead set on James 1:2-3, "Consider it all joy, my brothers, when facing various trials, knowing the testing of your faith produces endurance." 

This verse has kept me strong the past 5 months, and i KNOW if i had had this verse a year and a half ago my life would have been lived out SO differently. Its been a rough past year and a half and looking at my life now, and how i see things as being good because endurance will come out of it, not as my life is gonna end has made me SUCH a happier person! 

I have 5 minutes to share, and the big issue is i have a lot to put with this verse, i hope its gonna fit all in 5 minutes. 

AND

This friday like 5 days from now, i will officially be done with high school FOREVER!!!

CANNOT WAIT! 

well i need to go work on my essay, so i can be done friday!

When they say God works in mysterious ways, they MEAN IT....

this is how it all startedd... my friend took this facebook quiz titled "what kind of Christian are you" i though that was so dumb that someone would put a test out there to try define that. so i took it out of curiousity. I didn't need an answer from it, you can only get that from your heart. ok well after i took it i was saddned that someone would really think up that..so i wrote a comment after several people about it and well this is what i put: "God is our only TRUE judge. No test should be. We shouldn't be taking some test to know what kind of Christian we are. Thats only something we know in our heart, and its between us and God. This is very odd i think to put up here. And the questions it asked (i took it to see how pathetic it was) have nothing to do with what kind of Christian you are. NO TEST can tell you that. This almost saddens me seeing this, it makes me see that SO many people are captives to lies and their eyes HAVE NOT been opened to the truth." so then... i get this facebook friend request, and its from some lady idk and have no mutual friends with. i add her and ask her if i know her. She then Facebook Chat's me and then come to find out she lives in Manitoba, Canada and she saw my post on the quiz thing and added me knowing i was a believer.

None of her friends are...she didn't seem to speak very good english either, French is what the majority of the people speak in her area i think. But it was crazy cool,she told me she was a believer and where she lives there are only 3 churches, all Christian Churches she said. But none of her friends believe. She was asking me questions like if God has a "job" or something like that for us on Earth, and i answered the Great Commission and explained that! She also told me a story that one of her friends who she was trying to share the Gospel with asked how she could believe in God if she couldn't see Him and then proceeded to throw the bible she gave her at her. this lady was like asking me all these Christianity related questions. it was so cool not only that she was wanting to know more, but i got to share stuff with her like that and from her reaction and questions she was unsure on the stuff we discussed beforehand. And even though she was a believer, she obviously was uncertain or had somethings unanswered. But i thought it was awesome how God worked that out! So strange but SO cool!

And also i've been praying day in and day out for God to give me an oppurtunity sort of like this. To either share the Gospel with a non-believer or even be there for a believer who wasn't i guess totally sure on everything i guess you could say. Just someone i could be there for and give my testimony to! And praise the Lord because He delivered!

Ahh well i just had to share that thought it was so cool!

nightt

Colossians 3

So basically i'm just throwing out my connection and insight into these verses in Colossians 3 cause i read it about a week ago in my venture to read the entire Bible before the end of the year. [i have luke acts and revelations left of the New Testament, then onto the old! its taken me not even 3 weeks i'm so happy (: ] 

So ok first verse that keeps playing through my head...

Colossians 3:13 "Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you."

and colossians 3:15 applied as well "Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace."

ok so first time this verse really hit me during something that happened....

I was dating this guy back in Jan/Feb who i actually went to middle school with in Southlake, and moved to Aubrey this school year. My besties had invited him over to my house for a party and i didn't really care who came to an extent and he sounded cool. Later i found out, 10 minutes before he arrived we went to  middle school together, quite awkward. Well we really related on a lot. He was a great guy, respectful, sweet. Idk. but we were together almost a month and he decides to have me over one night, February 12th to be exact and everything seems perfectly fine. Then the next day [day BEFORE valentines] i get a text from him saying "i think we should see other people." First off notice-day before valentines, then-had me over the night before, then notice-BY text, then notice-he gave no real reason, even when i asked why. 

Ha i was ticked, but i realized ANY guy that immature, especially one who's older than me isn't worth my time. 

Well then about 2 weeks ago i guess he randomly texts me and is like "hey" and i think i ignored it. Then, couple days later hes like i need to call you. I was like really rude and i knew better than to be. he called and i was like 'can i help you' idk where that came from cause i'm not typically like that. He proceeds to say he's sorry for being such a jerk and ending it like he did. I was extremely rude and i said in a horrid tone "i forgive you, but that doesn't change anything, we still aren't friends, ok?" he was like ok, and i hung up. Well i had read colossians 3:13 literally 2 nights before and remembered that verse and even though i said i forgave him i was rude about it. Here he was being nice and i shoved it in his face. So i then feeling like a horrible person called him back and apologized for how i acted. Just goes to prove how much one verse can do to one person in a small situation. 

then right now 3:13 is really on my heart because me and my dads mom had a big fall out i think summer before my 8th grade or freshman year, i can't remember and haven't spoken since. And thats not her choice, its mine not to talk. But i just can't for some reason talk to her after she hurt me like she did and said the things she did. Like i know i need to but its so hard to let someone back in your life that messed it up at one point.

SAME exact deal with my moms mom just happened too. I got very upset because my grandpa's 75th birthday party which is a week from today that i can't attend because i'd get into a huge fight with my grandma at, and my uncle who's a julliard grad and my grandma basically worships the ground he walks on and thinks he is the only one who can have anything at all to do with music. Well i'd been working on a song called "Grandpa, Tell me Bout the Good Old Days" by The Judds. I wanted to sing it at the 'concert' portion of the party so i asked my grandma and she said "no i think it might embarress grandpa." that killed me more than she'll ever know. its because its country and to her thats not music. my grandpa is so laid back and loving he wouldn't care if i couldn't sing, the fact that i'd done that for him he would have loved. I then after venting to my mom about it and various other things my grandmother has done that has hurt me but i threw in the back of the closet i sent her an email with my mothers permission. She to this day doesn't see that she's done what she has. And how do i forgive someone who thinks they've done nothing wrong but in reality have, and everyone knows they have. Like i want to restore mine and hers relationship because we were really close. I literally called her everyday, no joke. My junior year i called her every morning when i turned on 380 out off of 2931 and then even again after school. I miss it yes, but at the same without her snide remarks that she thinks i dont pick out of the 'nice' stuff life it so much better. So i'm really at loss of what to do. 

well its like 4:30 am woww i had no clue..not tired yet..be best if i stay up until i go to bed tonight[saturday] cause i have to get up REALLY early to get ready and get  to church in time for the first service since i'm singing in the easter choir! so stoked for easter:) i love it love it love it! 

kk well going to play my guitar i believe..

oh and HANNAH MONTANA MOVIE WAS SO hysterical.. i think the people that were sitting in the theatre were more entertain than the actual movie though ahah. oh how i love the other girls in youth :)

hehe night

Its not about the War, its about the Warrior.

So basically, i'm really going through this crazy time. Ahh. Its so not what i wanted, but its what God has planned, so i'm gonna go with it. And i know its making me a stronger person.

But ok basically...i just found out that one of my best guy friends that i don't go a day without talking to, swears into the Marine Corps in like the next 14 hrs. He's been talking about joining the Marines, or Airforce. He's been really confused on the whole issue and wether or not its right for him. And I had no clue he was swearing in already. He told me friday he was still on the verge of not joining. He doesn't go to Basic until October, but still. And then he'll be stationed in Japan! Idk i'm just stressed, i feel like i'm losing everyone around me to the War. And its not just him shipping off, another one of my best guy friends is shipping off for Basic for the Army on July 28th. I've known him for almost 4 years, its gonna be so hard not seeing him. Its going to be hard not seeing either of them. I wish this war wasn't happening. Its all a part of life, yes, but i wish it wasn't. I didn't have anyone close to me in the Forces until now, and now that i do, even though they haven't even gone to basic, the reality of 'they are going to war, they may not make it home alive" it kicking in, and i don't like the feeling. All i can do is pray for their safety, i know. Ahh i gotta stop freaking out! Oh well i just had to get this out, its driving me nuts...

night :D

A dream i hope NEVER comes true...

i realize this is my what 3rd post in the last 10 hrs but i had the most bizzare dream and i had to post it so i could show my friends before i forgot the details. I can't imagine this dream ever really happening, if it did i'd be mortified i think.

Ok so basically what i remember was, It was Sunday and i was on my way to church, and it was specifically my church FBC Prosper in my dream which makes it even weirder, i usually don't dream specifics. Ok well the first part i remember is i get there and come to find out i had butt dialed' every staff members family (Kennedy's, Campbell's, Bartley's,) the prior sunday for like 5 mintues while arguing with my little brother. The craziest part about that, other than i have none of their phone numbers, is that this actually happened last sunday i 'butt dialed' Patrick Berg, my Youth Pastor for i think 6 minutes my phone said and had NO clue until like 2 hrs later. And during that time i was actually arguing with my brother in target because he was being a 'wild child' as i call it, and i was going to take away his taco bell lunch if he didn't act right[that didn't do much good saying that.}

The next thing in this dream that happened that i remember was everyone, i mean EVERYONE had iPods on for the worship time, idk where that came from, but it was totally weird. 

Then i think the thing that makes me laugh the most about the whole dream is while walking into the Church i see Warren Samuels(if you don't know who he is you won't understand why this is SO funny.) Well i say hey and give him a hug like i usually do sunday mornings and then hes leaving, but he had just got here and i'm like "where are you going?" and i kid you not in my dream he goes "i'm going home the sermons are too long for me."  If i ever see the day Warren Samuels skips church because he decides the 'sermon is too long' i think i'd drop dead of a heart attack in shock. Haha i may be the only one that finds that funny, but maybe not. 

Then the church service also lasted in my dream for maybe five minutes which made no sense. There were other weird things in it but they weren't funny enough to put up here.

Ahh well going back to bed..

Hmyns For EVERYONE (funny)

So basically i found this on accident. I opened up an old bible case that was sitting on my bookshelf to see what bible was in it (i have more bibles than i can keep up with.) Inside the front of the Bible case was a church bulletin from Sheppard Drive Baptist Church in Euless, my dad had served as music minister there for maybe a year, it was dated May 4th, 2003.

Well inside it there was a yellow sheet of paper with announcements and on the back it had a section i found quite funny titled 'Hymns for Everyone.'

This is what was on the paper

Dentist's Hymn........Crown Him with Many Crowns

Golfer's Hymn..........There's a Green Hill Far

Gossip's Hymn.........Pass It On

Electrician's Hymn..Send The Light

Shoppers Hymn.......Sweet By and By (this is my favorite)

And for those on the high way at:

45 mph.....God Will Take Care of You

55mph......Guide Me, O Thou Great Jehovah

65mph......Nearer My God To Thee

75mph......Near Still Nearer

85mph......This World is Not My Home

95mph......Lord, I'm Coming Home

Over 100mph...Precious Memories

After April 15th many will be heard singing the IRS Hymn: I Surrender All

^^^

that ones pretty funny too, which reminds me i haven't done my taxes :/ need to get on that

[that makes me feel old thinking i need to do my taxes, ughh not cool]

hahh well i just had to put that up here, gave me a good laugh.

Hopefully will get some sleep soon...

Random thought...

Random thought: What is the big deal with famous people?

Haha i over analyze things all the time. But this i just don't get. Ok tons of people know who they are, they are richer than they should be, but they aren't any different from you and i. Well in some ways they are, but many they aren't. 

The reason i got to thinking about this is, my immediate family is close friends with Tommy Cash, yes cash meaning related to Johnny Cash. He's actually the youngest brother of Johnny Cash. We are on top of that friends with every member of the Johnny Cash Show Band (his band who toured with him.) I see it as no big deal, they're just people! But when if i talk about it to people who don't know that we are friends with they they are like ohmygosh thats SO cool! idk maybe i don't see the cool side of it cause they just act like normal people to me and my family. They don't pull rank and act like you and I. I know their famous and what not, but whenever we are visiting them, or they're visiting us or we're doing show's with Tommy i don't see it as "ohmygosh i'm in the presence of someone famous" i just see it as kicking back and having a fun time laughing, making music, and hearing old stories. They only time i really think i get the whole ohmy their famous deal in my head is when i find out i'm doing a show with one of them. I've opened for Tommy at one of his concerts on Oklahoma, knowing i was going to be doing so only 15 minutes before the show, i think that was really the only time i had the "ohmy famous person" mindset. Then back about ehh 2 months ago my dad got an email from Tommy telling my dad to tell me that next show out in OK or that area, he wants to do a DUET with ME! That was totally awesome, and i got that whole "ohmy famous person" mindset again. But idk being around Tommy and the band members seems no different to me than hanging out at a bluegrass festival with my dad picking with a bunch of old people. haha Like we go down to Austin several times a year and visit Earl Poole Ball, who was Johnny's only piano player, and for 25 years, and its one of those oh we're going to see "grandpa" kind of deals.  Haha idk i just had to write this out. I was talking about it the other day when someone was talking about the movie Walk the Line and i naturally started pointing out everything that was incorrect in the movie, which led to the whole story about us knowing the family and band and they flipped out in amazement. Idk i just don't see the big deal of it.

Short and Sweet

I'm gonna try to make this short and sweet, but may not be able to. I tend to get started talking about one thing that leads me to another, and so on. 

Well for the past week until today i was on a fast from internet and text messaging. My pastor, Khris Kennedy,  had preached on it couple Sunday's ago and i had never really understood the whole idea of it and that its not just from food. It can be from things that consume your life daily. The internet[facebook] and texting is too often what i'm doing in my free time. So i decided that it'd be good for me to fast from it. It was hard, yes. But, entirely worth it! God opened my eyes to things in time spent with Him that i'd been praying for Him to for quite some time. It was a great week and experience! As well as i was able to complete reading 21 of the 27 books of the New Testament in their entirety[i've set a goal to read the Bible front to back by the end of the year]! i don't know how i did it considering i usually hate reading, but i couldn't put it down. One night i had sat down to read my bible and later looked at the clock and 2 hours had passed without me knowing it. 

Praise God this weekend wasn't as difficult as i expected it to be. It being the three month marker of my close friend Michael's death i expected a difficult weekend after how i had dealt with all the other month markers of his death(for some reason it hits me hardest around the month markers.)  God's answered my prayers and given me strength and comfort to cope with the loss of my friend and its such a blessing. I'm finally able to see other sides to the whole situation. Yes, i'm sad and i'll never forget Michael, but it was all part of God's perfect plan, and the mission God sent Michael to earth on was over. I can't live life dwelling on the past, i can't change it. Michael is in a better place, he's dancing on the streets of gold! And someday when my Savior takes me Home i'll see him again! 

Oh and one last thing....i happen to be part of the 1% of the people who get a pneumonia shot who have a freak reaction to it that causes a red mark(now a beautiful bruise) the diameter of a softball(at least) and to swell above my shoulder and gives me a horrid cough for almost two weeks! its just wonderful!! haha my mother has never had to get my a prescription cough syrup in all of my ALMOST 18 years of living until now....and this was caused by an pneumonia shot for immune system testing that i won't get results on for three months they said! woohoo.

hopefully i'll get some sleep...been up coughing all night 

and just took the rest of my prescription cough syrup in the bottle :/

Screaming, Slamming Doors, Tears....

So i decided to do an experiment today. No, not a science experiment. haha

I was thinking about how my relationship with my father is not good at all, and i wish it was better. I pray everyday God would give me wisdom on the issue. Its so hard to love someone and not react and get mad at someone who is constantly saying things that hurt you, and doing things they know make you mad. 

So i guess it was around 4 am or so during my quite time i had this idea of this "experiment." i decided whenever my dad said something or did something that upset or angered me today, i wouldn't be quick to react. And if i reacted, my reaction would be a reaction i would be ok with having if God was standing right next to me where i could see Him. I KNEW it would be a challenge. I woke up this afternoon at 3 pm however and my dad and brother were out for the day. They came back home around 9:30 or so. As soon as he gets home he starts going off on me about something that was pointless. And as hard as it was to not say anything and allow my reaction to be one that i wouldn't be ashamed of if God was standing right next to me, i was able to do just as i had hoped! It felt SO good to not get mad and to deal with it calmly and in a reasonable manner. I had always told myself to calm down and be nice or what not. Never really worked like i planned. But the whole "is my reaction a reaction i would be ashamed of if God was standing next to me" outlook on how to deal with it totally helped! i was so happy! Every night pretty much my dad and i have a fall out and it usually ends in slamming doors and screaming and me laying on my bed in tears praying asking God to give me wisdom for dealing with it. Finally i've gotten an answer, its probably not a full answer, but at least a partial one!  I can't wait for the next time he goes off on me honestly so i can deal with it just as i did earlier, it was such a good feeling, and didn't end in tears and slamming doors :)

The Wonderful World of Peer Pressure....

Ha ok so...this post is sorta a follow up post from my first one that had Romans 12:2 and James 1:2-3 on it. 

Right now, i'm SO thankful that i keep Romans 12:2 [Do not be conformed to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind] close to my heart. If it wasn't for that verse, my walk with God and my previous experience to 'peer pressure.' And my sense of knowing its not what i should do, sad as it is to say, i probably would have let my friends talk my into smoking a cigarette. I love my friends to death, and im not the kind of person who's gonna stop being friends with them because of their choices such as smoking. Now, in some cases, yes i'm going to stay away from people that i know i shouldn't be around because of their choices. But see the thing is, these friends i've known for like i guess 3 years now. And its not the easiest thing, or the right thing in my mind to not be their friend because they choose to smoke. Its not illegal, its just something i HATE and hate being around. Its so frustrating when you're with friends or a group of people and they are all lets say, smoking or drinking, and they know you won't go there cause its messed up your life before, yet they still pressure you into it. Thankfully i'm planted on a rock and not on sand, cause i think if i wasn't, i'd have taken that cigarette thinking i 'had' to do it to get their approval. But last night it was fairly easy to turn it down especially since i had Romans 12:2 on my heart. That verse has saved me from doing a lot of stuff i didn't want to do but was pressured into. Idk this is just a random thought.

Then this tuesday i had to go the the Allergist Immunologist since they can't figure out what on earth is wrong with me. They said the entire testing is going to take 3 months or so :/ and they needed to give me a pneumonia and tetnus [sp?] shot for some of the testing to see if my body produces the anti-bodies to fight it off. I only let them give me one on tuesday, and oh how thankful i am i only got one. I got the pneumonia shot in my arm, and i felt NOTHING! i've come to figure out i have a much higher pain tolerance than most people i know. But tuesday my arm was fine, felt no pain. Wednesday i wake up and my arm is sore and there is a red an swollen spot about the diameter of a quarter. Throughout the day it got a bit better pain wise, but the redness/swolleness got a bit worse. THEN, the next morning [thursday] i wake up and i kid you not i can't move my fingers i am in so much pain throughout my whole arm. I look at the spot they gave me my shot, and its about ehh 2 inches in diameter all the way around. It scares me to death. The diameter of the pain is about 6 inches in diameter all the way around. Then as time goes by it gets worse, so my mom calls the allergist. They want to see my immediately .. So i go in and i'm told only 1% of people who get the pneumonia shot have the reaction i did! Of course i have the luck of being part of that 1% haha. So they give me some meds to make it get better and send me on my way. Later that night i went to my friends house who i hadn't seen in months so sleepover. I didnt do anything that could have made my arm worse. But i'm putting on my pajama's and i notice my arm is hurting in more places than it did before, or at least the pain had spread. So i look at it, and i kid you not it was now the diameter of a baseball, at least. It was so weird, especially cause they told me it would get better, not worse. I woke up this morning to find it still swollen and red, and the swelling to have spread! haha i hurt yes, but its not my biggest problem. its the part that i have this crazy huge red swollen mark on my arm that is extremely strange and looks terrible haha. oh well. that really had no reason to be put in the post..just felt like putting it...i'm outta heree 

Saying Goodbye...

Is NEVER easy...it may be when someone is moving, or just walks out of your life. But what i'm dealing with isn't technically a goodbye i guess you could say its a more of a "have fun in the streets of gold, see you someday!" At least its an easier way to think about it. I just gotta get this out. Since September, well technically last day of August of 08, i have had a total of now 5 deaths of people in my life, 2 of whom i wasn't close to, but i knew them so it still hurts. Its just so hard to think about. Like one of my mom's best friends, Cynthia Cockrell, then my Granny, then my dog(yes i know she's not a person) all within 2 months time. Then January 3rd i lost my BEST guy friend from Junior year. That one i will have to say has hit me the hardest. But it didn't hit me until about 2 weeks ago on the 2 month marker of his death. Its been SO hard to deal with, i mean yeah its gonna be its death, but also because the last 7 months of his life we grew apart due to being at different schools, and having a different group of friends. It makes me wonder what it would have been like if i was there. I didn't expect to lose him like this, no one did. And i wish i had those 7 months back to re-live and be there. But, i know deep down in my heart, God didn't take him away forever. And in the end its made me so much stronger of a person its insane. But its just been eating me alive these past 2 weeks. The reality of it all has finally sunk in and i can't sit in my room with it quiet or without doing anything cause i find myself thinking about him and how much i miss that kid. I have more unforgetable memories with him than pretty much anyone else. I think also until you lose that person that means so much to you, you don't realize it fully how big of a part of your life they were. I know i can't go back in time a change my presence during the last 7 months of his life, and i can't go back and call him to wish him a happy birthday on his 18th birthday that happened to be only 4 days before his wreck. I also have learned a HUGE thing from this whole event. That being, i can't let a day go by without sharing the Gospel with someone i know doesn't know Christ, or i'm unsure it they are or not. During our friendship, i was just a baby Christian so i still wasn't on the whole "share the gospel train." I didn't have the knowledge and faith i have now. I remember when him and i started to become friends he said he was "Agnositc." That should have set off an alarm in my head telling me to share what i believed with him. But it didn't. Idk why, maybe that I myself had been a Christian for not even 3 months and didn't have that mindset yet, or something else. But during our entire friendship, we always has a rough time talking about anything related to what i believed. I'm not sure why, but thats the way it was. However, October of 07 he lost a dear friend to a wreck from the Celina Band. He had told me that he had rededicated his life to Christ, and i was SO happy for him. But after that, i never brought it up. And when i got word that he didn't survive the wreck, one of the first things that came to my mind is, "Oh gosh, is he in Heaven?" I had forgotten about the time he had told me he had rededicated his life to Christ. And i can't tell you how scary that was for me. I NEVER want to have that feeling again. I was in fear for him. And some of my friends were asking the same thing. But it ate me alive because there were SO many times i had the oppertunity to share the Gospel with him, but didn't. I felt so much guilt. However, the pastor who did his funeral service had told a story of how Michael had come to him after the service of his friend, and said he wanted to rededicate his life to Christ. It brought SUCH relief. And i then had remembered he told me that. Going through all of that has definitely given me a different outlook on not being afraid to share with others. If i get to Heaven before all my friends, i want to make sure that they end up there after me, viceversa. Also, this past saturday i got word that the dad of my two best friends that i've had since 8th grade, dad had passed away earlier that week. I didn't know him well, but i had met him on several occasions. I can't even imagine what they are feeling right now. All i can do is pray God comforts them and let them know i'm here for them. Idk its just so hard having all this death around me. I've lost a lot of people this way in my life, but now that i'm older it sinks and and hits me harder. Ahh well this is super long now..and i gotta go eat...

byeeee

I had the MOST Amazing Realization, God keeps amazing me more and more...

Well I just HAD to share this because it truly shows how AMAZING and powerful God is! He is constantly amazing me daily in different ways. But this time i was in such awe of it all, it brought me tears of Joy! It was amazing!

Well it all started at about 6 am or so Thursday morning. I hadn't been asleep, i've been having trouble sleeping these past few days b/c of the time change. But I was in bed about to have my quite time and i see an old journal of mind under my bedside table. I remembered it was what i had been writing in from April-June 08. For about 6 months I had a mentor at my old church, and she told me that sometimes she'll journal and write it as though its a prayer, and its a good way to get thoughts out. So i started doing that a bit. There weren't many entries in it but i read through the ones in it. Now at this point in my life i was a Baby Christian. I was raised in the Church but didn't accepted Christ until June 7th 2007. I ran from God for so long because i felt it was forced upon me. Now i can't see why i ran. But well I started reading it and a re-occuring sentence was asking God to draw me closer to Him. It was something i was continually asking from the day i accepted Christ. Now, beginning in January 08 i had some major events happen. First my Youth Pastor Left, then i found out my band director was resigning for my senior year, i totaled my moms car, found out my assistant band director who i looked up to, but no one else liked was leaving but i knew a month before EVERONE else and wasn't allowed to say a word, which was REALLY hard, then i  lost drum major which i thought was the end of the world and i'd worked my butt off for 3 years for[but now i see wasn't], then found out my jazz band director was leaving as well, then i went through a time where i totally drew away from God [i learned a HUGE lesson from this and never want it to happen again]. Then the fall came, my mom's dear friend, Cynthia Cockrell died, then my basically Grandma but not by blood died a month later, then my dog in a freak accident. Just one disappointing thing after another kept happening. And i'll be honest, i wasn't really back on track with God until probably early November. I had left DBC and was in search of a new church but no church i visited felt right. Then in december i decided to visit FBC Prosper, however i always told myself i'd never choose to go to a Baptist Church on my own after being raised in one, after a few visits and lots of prayer i knew it was where God wanted me. It just felt like family, i loved it and knew it was a place i could grow in my walk with God in. Then this past January 11th I was baptized! It was SUCH a special day!

 On January 3rd of this year, i got a text from friend that brought devastating news. My best guy friend from junior year, who was also a fellow horn player, and my prom date junior year, had been in a tragic car wreck the night before and didn't make it. THAT killed me. And i hadn't gotten to call and wish him a happy 18th b-day 5 days prior. On top of that i've been dealing with a lot of Health issues and since August 22nd 2008 i've been sick off and on. I had mono. But now just have a hard time getting well and staying healthy. Which has caused a lot of stress, and not having an answer as to why. But now to the point of this whole post. When i went through these events, except for Michael's Death, and my now unknown illness. I have realized during those times, i did NOT run to God for comfort, i ran to friends and others around me. And now especially since michaels death i have begun to run to God FIRST during times of heartache. This has brought me SO MUCH closer to God! My relationship with Him has deepened and grown in ways i never knew existed. It's the most AMAZING feeling in the world. After reading the journal entries i began to make a lot of connections. And i realized that from the time i really was asking God to bring me closer to Him, all these life changing events started happening. And now that i have much better understanding of the Christian Faith and know my Bible much more, i've realized God put ALL of those trials in my path to bring me closer to Him like i had been asking! He was answering my prayers in a way, and I NEVER realized it until now. And now that i realize it, it calms my heart SO much with the pain i suffered through those events. When i figured this out i was at loss of words. It brought me to tears of joy because of how God works. It was such a special moment. And also i think about what my walk with Christ was like from the time i accepted Christ and how it is now. And i can't believe how much my walk with Him has grown. Even in these last 3 months. I never expected to be at the point i'm at right now. Before  i accepted Christ, i thought that Christianity was "ask Jesus to save you from your sins,be dunked under water, follow rules, pray, go to church, read your bible." I never had been told that "its not a religion, its a relationship" Without Him, and the relationship i have with him, I could not have the positive attitude i have about the trials i am put through daily. I would keep all my pain and suffering bottled up and i'd be one depressed kid. I know this was really long and i could write more, but won't, but i just had to put this out here, it was so amazing to me! James 1:2-3 has definitely gotten me through these last couple of months, "Consider it ALL joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces ENDURANCE!" and this verse it SO true!

ahh well i'm gonna try to sleep now...i've slept maybe 10 hrs in the past  72+ hrs :/

Living In THIS Way....

WARNING: This is LONG, but TOTALLY WORTH YOUR TIME, so READ it, OR your COMPUTER SCREEN will EXPLODE :D
So lately in my daily quite times I've been finding some Bible verses that REALLY speak to me! And i want to share them and as to why they speak to my heart and are constantly running through my mind on an hourly basis. I'm sure most have heard the majority of these but you never know! Enjoyy :D

okayy so the first verse I'm gonna talk about it Romans 12:2. Now most people who've grown up in the Church, will know this verse, its quite a commonly known one. The part in red is what i'm focusing on.

Romans 12:2 says "And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good, and acceptable and perfect." 

Well being a High school student, as all of us who've been there, done that, or are still there, know how much peer pressure we deal with. Whether it be to drink, smoke, sneak out, ect.. I've definitely dealt with peer pressure. And a LOT worse than i EVER expected. I've fallen to it before, yes, but not to extreme instances. But as we get put into peer pressure or what not and we fall into it and go along with whatever it may be, we are being "conformed to this world." And not only are we acting like the world does, and not acting as we are walking in the footsteps of God. But we are falling to Satans' Lies. Satans' goal is to turn YOU from the TRUTH to LIES, and turn YOU against God to him. We don't realize it when we are offered that beer, in some cases and take it. Or even Gossiping [i know thats one thing i struggle with.] But if we want to live an abundant, God centered life, We have to be "TRANSFORMED by the renewing of our minds." As tempting as it is to do those things that we know aren't right, but seem SO good at the time, we have to turn from them and "renew our minds." Spending time in God's word and putting ourselves in constant check of how we are living is a way of being "transformed by the renewing of our minds"

This verse i've known for quite a while and its always stuck out in my mind. Everyday i'm tempted by Satans' lies, we ALL are, no one's perfect. That verse has definitely helped in times i've struggled with such situations.

But its not always peer pressure i deal with things when this verse comes to mind. A lot of the times its, either music i'm listening to, or when i'm hanging out with a certain group of people, how i act unlike the person i REALLY am to gain acceptance. I've gotten a LOT better with NOT doing that, but its hard, especially cause NO ONE wants to be rejected, i've dealt with it BIG TIME all through High School, which is when it hurts the most to not be accepted for who you are.  Which brings me to my next verse...

James 1:2-3 "Consider it ALL joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance."

Ok well this verse is one of my FAV's of all time.

First off, most people that aren't close to me don't know this but, I was raised in a  Southern Baptist Church, went to Church EVERY Sunday and what not. My dad was a Music Minister and my mom was the Children's Director at a Church we were at for quite a while too. However, i RAN from God, i didn't want anything to do with Church, or anything like that. I wasn't a bad kid, i just had it shoved down my throat, i felt and didn't want anything to do with it. It wasn't until June 7th, 2007 [summer before junior year] that I accepted Christ as 

my Savior. Big shock to most people when they find out because i'm so "uber-Christian" as Brennan McSweeney calls me. Now how that little bit applies to what i'm going to say about this verse...

Well i'll just be blunt, I was the girl pretty much everyone hated in high school, made fun of daily, had insane rumors such as i was pregnant cause i had gained weight from medication i was on[i'm saving my v-card till marriage, and everyone knew that] and was in tears crying almost every day of my 9th&10th grade year. As pathetic as i sound saying that, its 100% true and i'm NOT afraid to admit it.  I dreaded going to school and dealing with all the people who gave me trouble. I was miserable. And now that i look back on my 9th and 10th grade years, i think to myself, if i knew Christ at those hard times in my life, and was on a growing path walking with Him, i could have gotten through it a LOT easier than i did and trusted Him that everything was gonna be ok. And i could have clung to this verse knowing that these "trials" would produce "endurance" and make me a MUCH stronger person and i'd grow in my faith by not seeing it as "my life is horrible" but seeing it as "Everything is gonna be ok" or seeing the brighter side or "joy" of it ALL. And now that i am a believer, and walking on a STRONG and GROWING path with my Lord and Savior, and I keep this verse in my mind and heart, I can deal with the tough times a LOT easier. Such as Since August 22nd i've been sick, and haven't really gotten better. I've gotten better for a VERY short time, but the next thing i know, i'm sick again. finally back in I'd say early december late november, they found out i'd had mono. But it was out of my system by the time they found out and i was STILL sick. I've been extremely weak. I sleep all day and all night, and have no energy ever Sometimes can't even pull my self up to sit up in bed. Somedays i can go do stuff, but i can't stay out long without feeling worse than i did the day before. About 3 weeks ago i guess, i was having severe side and lower chest pain and went to the ER. Come to find out my liver was inflamed and pushing up against my rib cage causing the severe pain. They said it would go down in less than a week or so and it was a Post-Mono symptom, and to have a follow up in 4 days with my Primary Care Dr. So that monday i went to a new dr. who has more training than the Dr. i had been seeing. And she finally gave us a possible reason as to WHY i'm alway sick! So many prayers were answered during this Dr. visit, i was SO thankful! She said it could be CVID, Common Variable Immunodeficiency. Which is basically from what i know where your body doesn't produce a certain thing for your immune system to fight off disease/infection, ect.. Its a Chronic Illness, meaning its life long and i'll be on meds and shots until I meet my Saviour in Heaven

! And i've been sick pretty much my whole life, but never to this extent, so it explained a LOT.A week ago they took blood to test for this among several other things, including Arthritis and said my bloodwork results would be in by Monday. Well monday rolls around, no phone call, tuesday, nothing, wednesday, my mom gets a call saying they had to send my blood to California because the testing they were doing is so rarely done, that closest lab to do this was in Cali. So i was extremely upset because i can't start getting better until they find out what i have and put me on meds. Its been a week and a day since i got my blood taken, still no answer! And i had to get a CT scan Yesterday[friday] on my liver, gallbladder, and intestines because my liver is still inflammed. Well this on top of losing a friend to a tragic car wreck who i was REALLY close to all of Junior year, but sorta grew apart from this past year b/c of the distance of our homes, and schools and what not was extremely hard to cope with. RIP Michael Nall [12/30/90-1/3/09] Its been a really stressful time. And i've struggled with staying positive and finding "joy" in the "trials" rather than the "bad." Once i stumbled across this verse during a quite time, and really praying on it and keeping it in my mind and on my heart, trying to live it out. I've felt so much happier, and have really grown in my walk with Christ. I've been able to see the 'joy' in these negative times, and keep a positive attitude because i know that not letting it get to me, and seeing the positive, i will gain endurance, which i most definitely have. Its so amazing  to me what the power of a verse and the power of a prayer can do to one person, and at the same time millions of people. It just goes to prove how AMAZING and POWERFUL our God is! Basically this verse is one we ALL should keep in mind. I'm constantly on Facebook or Myspace, and i see people post things like "this is the worst day of my life" and what not. And i know that i used to do that ALL the time, and it just made me even more upset and depressed. But by keeping this verse in mind, and seeing the positive things in the 'trials' put in front of me, i've really been a much happier person. I never realized how much a difference it would make until i really started living it out. 

Well, its like 4 am :/ and i'm super tired! I wanted to add some more verses tonight, but i've already written enough to make my fingers fall off. hah. And I

 want to pray on and think out some of the verses i want to share that apply within my life first before i throw them out here on the

 table or should i say internet. But i will hopefully put up another post tomorrow or something! Church is tomorrow! woo hoo!! Can't wait for Pastor Khris' Sermon!  And seeing all my church friends! Kk well i'm outta here. oh and any prayer requestss? HIT ME UP, the  

power of a prayer is insanely amazingg&& i love prayingg for y'all :D