So ok first verse that keeps playing through my head...
Colossians 3:13 "Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you."
and colossians 3:15 applied as well "Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace."
ok so first time this verse really hit me during something that happened....
I was dating this guy back in Jan/Feb who i actually went to middle school with in Southlake, and moved to Aubrey this school year. My besties had invited him over to my house for a party and i didn't really care who came to an extent and he sounded cool. Later i found out, 10 minutes before he arrived we went to middle school together, quite awkward. Well we really related on a lot. He was a great guy, respectful, sweet. Idk. but we were together almost a month and he decides to have me over one night, February 12th to be exact and everything seems perfectly fine. Then the next day [day BEFORE valentines] i get a text from him saying "i think we should see other people." First off notice-day before valentines, then-had me over the night before, then notice-BY text, then notice-he gave no real reason, even when i asked why.
Ha i was ticked, but i realized ANY guy that immature, especially one who's older than me isn't worth my time.
Well then about 2 weeks ago i guess he randomly texts me and is like "hey" and i think i ignored it. Then, couple days later hes like i need to call you. I was like really rude and i knew better than to be. he called and i was like 'can i help you' idk where that came from cause i'm not typically like that. He proceeds to say he's sorry for being such a jerk and ending it like he did. I was extremely rude and i said in a horrid tone "i forgive you, but that doesn't change anything, we still aren't friends, ok?" he was like ok, and i hung up. Well i had read colossians 3:13 literally 2 nights before and remembered that verse and even though i said i forgave him i was rude about it. Here he was being nice and i shoved it in his face. So i then feeling like a horrible person called him back and apologized for how i acted. Just goes to prove how much one verse can do to one person in a small situation.
then right now 3:13 is really on my heart because me and my dads mom had a big fall out i think summer before my 8th grade or freshman year, i can't remember and haven't spoken since. And thats not her choice, its mine not to talk. But i just can't for some reason talk to her after she hurt me like she did and said the things she did. Like i know i need to but its so hard to let someone back in your life that messed it up at one point.
SAME exact deal with my moms mom just happened too. I got very upset because my grandpa's 75th birthday party which is a week from today that i can't attend because i'd get into a huge fight with my grandma at, and my uncle who's a julliard grad and my grandma basically worships the ground he walks on and thinks he is the only one who can have anything at all to do with music. Well i'd been working on a song called "Grandpa, Tell me Bout the Good Old Days" by The Judds. I wanted to sing it at the 'concert' portion of the party so i asked my grandma and she said "no i think it might embarress grandpa." that killed me more than she'll ever know. its because its country and to her thats not music. my grandpa is so laid back and loving he wouldn't care if i couldn't sing, the fact that i'd done that for him he would have loved. I then after venting to my mom about it and various other things my grandmother has done that has hurt me but i threw in the back of the closet i sent her an email with my mothers permission. She to this day doesn't see that she's done what she has. And how do i forgive someone who thinks they've done nothing wrong but in reality have, and everyone knows they have. Like i want to restore mine and hers relationship because we were really close. I literally called her everyday, no joke. My junior year i called her every morning when i turned on 380 out off of 2931 and then even again after school. I miss it yes, but at the same without her snide remarks that she thinks i dont pick out of the 'nice' stuff life it so much better. So i'm really at loss of what to do.
well its like 4:30 am woww i had no clue..not tired yet..be best if i stay up until i go to bed tonight[saturday] cause i have to get up REALLY early to get ready and get to church in time for the first service since i'm singing in the easter choir! so stoked for easter:) i love it love it love it!
kk well going to play my guitar i believe..
oh and HANNAH MONTANA MOVIE WAS SO hysterical.. i think the people that were sitting in the theatre were more entertain than the actual movie though ahah. oh how i love the other girls in youth :)
hehe night
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