Right now, i'm SO thankful that i keep Romans 12:2 [Do not be conformed to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind] close to my heart. If it wasn't for that verse, my walk with God and my previous experience to 'peer pressure.' And my sense of knowing its not what i should do, sad as it is to say, i probably would have let my friends talk my into smoking a cigarette. I love my friends to death, and im not the kind of person who's gonna stop being friends with them because of their choices such as smoking. Now, in some cases, yes i'm going to stay away from people that i know i shouldn't be around because of their choices. But see the thing is, these friends i've known for like i guess 3 years now. And its not the easiest thing, or the right thing in my mind to not be their friend because they choose to smoke. Its not illegal, its just something i HATE and hate being around. Its so frustrating when you're with friends or a group of people and they are all lets say, smoking or drinking, and they know you won't go there cause its messed up your life before, yet they still pressure you into it. Thankfully i'm planted on a rock and not on sand, cause i think if i wasn't, i'd have taken that cigarette thinking i 'had' to do it to get their approval. But last night it was fairly easy to turn it down especially since i had Romans 12:2 on my heart. That verse has saved me from doing a lot of stuff i didn't want to do but was pressured into. Idk this is just a random thought.
Then this tuesday i had to go the the Allergist Immunologist since they can't figure out what on earth is wrong with me. They said the entire testing is going to take 3 months or so :/ and they needed to give me a pneumonia and tetnus [sp?] shot for some of the testing to see if my body produces the anti-bodies to fight it off. I only let them give me one on tuesday, and oh how thankful i am i only got one. I got the pneumonia shot in my arm, and i felt NOTHING! i've come to figure out i have a much higher pain tolerance than most people i know. But tuesday my arm was fine, felt no pain. Wednesday i wake up and my arm is sore and there is a red an swollen spot about the diameter of a quarter. Throughout the day it got a bit better pain wise, but the redness/swolleness got a bit worse. THEN, the next morning [thursday] i wake up and i kid you not i can't move my fingers i am in so much pain throughout my whole arm. I look at the spot they gave me my shot, and its about ehh 2 inches in diameter all the way around. It scares me to death. The diameter of the pain is about 6 inches in diameter all the way around. Then as time goes by it gets worse, so my mom calls the allergist. They want to see my immediately .. So i go in and i'm told only 1% of people who get the pneumonia shot have the reaction i did! Of course i have the luck of being part of that 1% haha. So they give me some meds to make it get better and send me on my way. Later that night i went to my friends house who i hadn't seen in months so sleepover. I didnt do anything that could have made my arm worse. But i'm putting on my pajama's and i notice my arm is hurting in more places than it did before, or at least the pain had spread. So i look at it, and i kid you not it was now the diameter of a baseball, at least. It was so weird, especially cause they told me it would get better, not worse. I woke up this morning to find it still swollen and red, and the swelling to have spread! haha i hurt yes, but its not my biggest problem. its the part that i have this crazy huge red swollen mark on my arm that is extremely strange and looks terrible haha. oh well. that really had no reason to be put in the post..just felt like putting it...i'm outta heree
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