Senior Share Night>>Impact

Senior Share Night is two weeks from today at Impact, a local church type thing on monday nights where i live for high school students. 

Now i've really been praying on what i want to share and what scripture to put along with it. Right now i'm almost dead set on James 1:2-3, "Consider it all joy, my brothers, when facing various trials, knowing the testing of your faith produces endurance." 

This verse has kept me strong the past 5 months, and i KNOW if i had had this verse a year and a half ago my life would have been lived out SO differently. Its been a rough past year and a half and looking at my life now, and how i see things as being good because endurance will come out of it, not as my life is gonna end has made me SUCH a happier person! 

I have 5 minutes to share, and the big issue is i have a lot to put with this verse, i hope its gonna fit all in 5 minutes. 

AND

This friday like 5 days from now, i will officially be done with high school FOREVER!!!

CANNOT WAIT! 

well i need to go work on my essay, so i can be done friday!

When they say God works in mysterious ways, they MEAN IT....

this is how it all startedd... my friend took this facebook quiz titled "what kind of Christian are you" i though that was so dumb that someone would put a test out there to try define that. so i took it out of curiousity. I didn't need an answer from it, you can only get that from your heart. ok well after i took it i was saddned that someone would really think up that..so i wrote a comment after several people about it and well this is what i put: "God is our only TRUE judge. No test should be. We shouldn't be taking some test to know what kind of Christian we are. Thats only something we know in our heart, and its between us and God. This is very odd i think to put up here. And the questions it asked (i took it to see how pathetic it was) have nothing to do with what kind of Christian you are. NO TEST can tell you that. This almost saddens me seeing this, it makes me see that SO many people are captives to lies and their eyes HAVE NOT been opened to the truth." so then... i get this facebook friend request, and its from some lady idk and have no mutual friends with. i add her and ask her if i know her. She then Facebook Chat's me and then come to find out she lives in Manitoba, Canada and she saw my post on the quiz thing and added me knowing i was a believer.

None of her friends are...she didn't seem to speak very good english either, French is what the majority of the people speak in her area i think. But it was crazy cool,she told me she was a believer and where she lives there are only 3 churches, all Christian Churches she said. But none of her friends believe. She was asking me questions like if God has a "job" or something like that for us on Earth, and i answered the Great Commission and explained that! She also told me a story that one of her friends who she was trying to share the Gospel with asked how she could believe in God if she couldn't see Him and then proceeded to throw the bible she gave her at her. this lady was like asking me all these Christianity related questions. it was so cool not only that she was wanting to know more, but i got to share stuff with her like that and from her reaction and questions she was unsure on the stuff we discussed beforehand. And even though she was a believer, she obviously was uncertain or had somethings unanswered. But i thought it was awesome how God worked that out! So strange but SO cool!

And also i've been praying day in and day out for God to give me an oppurtunity sort of like this. To either share the Gospel with a non-believer or even be there for a believer who wasn't i guess totally sure on everything i guess you could say. Just someone i could be there for and give my testimony to! And praise the Lord because He delivered!

Ahh well i just had to share that thought it was so cool!

nightt

Colossians 3

So basically i'm just throwing out my connection and insight into these verses in Colossians 3 cause i read it about a week ago in my venture to read the entire Bible before the end of the year. [i have luke acts and revelations left of the New Testament, then onto the old! its taken me not even 3 weeks i'm so happy (: ] 

So ok first verse that keeps playing through my head...

Colossians 3:13 "Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you."

and colossians 3:15 applied as well "Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace."

ok so first time this verse really hit me during something that happened....

I was dating this guy back in Jan/Feb who i actually went to middle school with in Southlake, and moved to Aubrey this school year. My besties had invited him over to my house for a party and i didn't really care who came to an extent and he sounded cool. Later i found out, 10 minutes before he arrived we went to  middle school together, quite awkward. Well we really related on a lot. He was a great guy, respectful, sweet. Idk. but we were together almost a month and he decides to have me over one night, February 12th to be exact and everything seems perfectly fine. Then the next day [day BEFORE valentines] i get a text from him saying "i think we should see other people." First off notice-day before valentines, then-had me over the night before, then notice-BY text, then notice-he gave no real reason, even when i asked why. 

Ha i was ticked, but i realized ANY guy that immature, especially one who's older than me isn't worth my time. 

Well then about 2 weeks ago i guess he randomly texts me and is like "hey" and i think i ignored it. Then, couple days later hes like i need to call you. I was like really rude and i knew better than to be. he called and i was like 'can i help you' idk where that came from cause i'm not typically like that. He proceeds to say he's sorry for being such a jerk and ending it like he did. I was extremely rude and i said in a horrid tone "i forgive you, but that doesn't change anything, we still aren't friends, ok?" he was like ok, and i hung up. Well i had read colossians 3:13 literally 2 nights before and remembered that verse and even though i said i forgave him i was rude about it. Here he was being nice and i shoved it in his face. So i then feeling like a horrible person called him back and apologized for how i acted. Just goes to prove how much one verse can do to one person in a small situation. 

then right now 3:13 is really on my heart because me and my dads mom had a big fall out i think summer before my 8th grade or freshman year, i can't remember and haven't spoken since. And thats not her choice, its mine not to talk. But i just can't for some reason talk to her after she hurt me like she did and said the things she did. Like i know i need to but its so hard to let someone back in your life that messed it up at one point.

SAME exact deal with my moms mom just happened too. I got very upset because my grandpa's 75th birthday party which is a week from today that i can't attend because i'd get into a huge fight with my grandma at, and my uncle who's a julliard grad and my grandma basically worships the ground he walks on and thinks he is the only one who can have anything at all to do with music. Well i'd been working on a song called "Grandpa, Tell me Bout the Good Old Days" by The Judds. I wanted to sing it at the 'concert' portion of the party so i asked my grandma and she said "no i think it might embarress grandpa." that killed me more than she'll ever know. its because its country and to her thats not music. my grandpa is so laid back and loving he wouldn't care if i couldn't sing, the fact that i'd done that for him he would have loved. I then after venting to my mom about it and various other things my grandmother has done that has hurt me but i threw in the back of the closet i sent her an email with my mothers permission. She to this day doesn't see that she's done what she has. And how do i forgive someone who thinks they've done nothing wrong but in reality have, and everyone knows they have. Like i want to restore mine and hers relationship because we were really close. I literally called her everyday, no joke. My junior year i called her every morning when i turned on 380 out off of 2931 and then even again after school. I miss it yes, but at the same without her snide remarks that she thinks i dont pick out of the 'nice' stuff life it so much better. So i'm really at loss of what to do. 

well its like 4:30 am woww i had no clue..not tired yet..be best if i stay up until i go to bed tonight[saturday] cause i have to get up REALLY early to get ready and get  to church in time for the first service since i'm singing in the easter choir! so stoked for easter:) i love it love it love it! 

kk well going to play my guitar i believe..

oh and HANNAH MONTANA MOVIE WAS SO hysterical.. i think the people that were sitting in the theatre were more entertain than the actual movie though ahah. oh how i love the other girls in youth :)

hehe night

Its not about the War, its about the Warrior.

So basically, i'm really going through this crazy time. Ahh. Its so not what i wanted, but its what God has planned, so i'm gonna go with it. And i know its making me a stronger person.

But ok basically...i just found out that one of my best guy friends that i don't go a day without talking to, swears into the Marine Corps in like the next 14 hrs. He's been talking about joining the Marines, or Airforce. He's been really confused on the whole issue and wether or not its right for him. And I had no clue he was swearing in already. He told me friday he was still on the verge of not joining. He doesn't go to Basic until October, but still. And then he'll be stationed in Japan! Idk i'm just stressed, i feel like i'm losing everyone around me to the War. And its not just him shipping off, another one of my best guy friends is shipping off for Basic for the Army on July 28th. I've known him for almost 4 years, its gonna be so hard not seeing him. Its going to be hard not seeing either of them. I wish this war wasn't happening. Its all a part of life, yes, but i wish it wasn't. I didn't have anyone close to me in the Forces until now, and now that i do, even though they haven't even gone to basic, the reality of 'they are going to war, they may not make it home alive" it kicking in, and i don't like the feeling. All i can do is pray for their safety, i know. Ahh i gotta stop freaking out! Oh well i just had to get this out, its driving me nuts...

night :D

A dream i hope NEVER comes true...

i realize this is my what 3rd post in the last 10 hrs but i had the most bizzare dream and i had to post it so i could show my friends before i forgot the details. I can't imagine this dream ever really happening, if it did i'd be mortified i think.

Ok so basically what i remember was, It was Sunday and i was on my way to church, and it was specifically my church FBC Prosper in my dream which makes it even weirder, i usually don't dream specifics. Ok well the first part i remember is i get there and come to find out i had butt dialed' every staff members family (Kennedy's, Campbell's, Bartley's,) the prior sunday for like 5 mintues while arguing with my little brother. The craziest part about that, other than i have none of their phone numbers, is that this actually happened last sunday i 'butt dialed' Patrick Berg, my Youth Pastor for i think 6 minutes my phone said and had NO clue until like 2 hrs later. And during that time i was actually arguing with my brother in target because he was being a 'wild child' as i call it, and i was going to take away his taco bell lunch if he didn't act right[that didn't do much good saying that.}

The next thing in this dream that happened that i remember was everyone, i mean EVERYONE had iPods on for the worship time, idk where that came from, but it was totally weird. 

Then i think the thing that makes me laugh the most about the whole dream is while walking into the Church i see Warren Samuels(if you don't know who he is you won't understand why this is SO funny.) Well i say hey and give him a hug like i usually do sunday mornings and then hes leaving, but he had just got here and i'm like "where are you going?" and i kid you not in my dream he goes "i'm going home the sermons are too long for me."  If i ever see the day Warren Samuels skips church because he decides the 'sermon is too long' i think i'd drop dead of a heart attack in shock. Haha i may be the only one that finds that funny, but maybe not. 

Then the church service also lasted in my dream for maybe five minutes which made no sense. There were other weird things in it but they weren't funny enough to put up here.

Ahh well going back to bed..

Hmyns For EVERYONE (funny)

So basically i found this on accident. I opened up an old bible case that was sitting on my bookshelf to see what bible was in it (i have more bibles than i can keep up with.) Inside the front of the Bible case was a church bulletin from Sheppard Drive Baptist Church in Euless, my dad had served as music minister there for maybe a year, it was dated May 4th, 2003.

Well inside it there was a yellow sheet of paper with announcements and on the back it had a section i found quite funny titled 'Hymns for Everyone.'

This is what was on the paper

Dentist's Hymn........Crown Him with Many Crowns

Golfer's Hymn..........There's a Green Hill Far

Gossip's Hymn.........Pass It On

Electrician's Hymn..Send The Light

Shoppers Hymn.......Sweet By and By (this is my favorite)

And for those on the high way at:

45 mph.....God Will Take Care of You

55mph......Guide Me, O Thou Great Jehovah

65mph......Nearer My God To Thee

75mph......Near Still Nearer

85mph......This World is Not My Home

95mph......Lord, I'm Coming Home

Over 100mph...Precious Memories

After April 15th many will be heard singing the IRS Hymn: I Surrender All

^^^

that ones pretty funny too, which reminds me i haven't done my taxes :/ need to get on that

[that makes me feel old thinking i need to do my taxes, ughh not cool]

hahh well i just had to put that up here, gave me a good laugh.

Hopefully will get some sleep soon...

Random thought...

Random thought: What is the big deal with famous people?

Haha i over analyze things all the time. But this i just don't get. Ok tons of people know who they are, they are richer than they should be, but they aren't any different from you and i. Well in some ways they are, but many they aren't. 

The reason i got to thinking about this is, my immediate family is close friends with Tommy Cash, yes cash meaning related to Johnny Cash. He's actually the youngest brother of Johnny Cash. We are on top of that friends with every member of the Johnny Cash Show Band (his band who toured with him.) I see it as no big deal, they're just people! But when if i talk about it to people who don't know that we are friends with they they are like ohmygosh thats SO cool! idk maybe i don't see the cool side of it cause they just act like normal people to me and my family. They don't pull rank and act like you and I. I know their famous and what not, but whenever we are visiting them, or they're visiting us or we're doing show's with Tommy i don't see it as "ohmygosh i'm in the presence of someone famous" i just see it as kicking back and having a fun time laughing, making music, and hearing old stories. They only time i really think i get the whole ohmy their famous deal in my head is when i find out i'm doing a show with one of them. I've opened for Tommy at one of his concerts on Oklahoma, knowing i was going to be doing so only 15 minutes before the show, i think that was really the only time i had the "ohmy famous person" mindset. Then back about ehh 2 months ago my dad got an email from Tommy telling my dad to tell me that next show out in OK or that area, he wants to do a DUET with ME! That was totally awesome, and i got that whole "ohmy famous person" mindset again. But idk being around Tommy and the band members seems no different to me than hanging out at a bluegrass festival with my dad picking with a bunch of old people. haha Like we go down to Austin several times a year and visit Earl Poole Ball, who was Johnny's only piano player, and for 25 years, and its one of those oh we're going to see "grandpa" kind of deals.  Haha idk i just had to write this out. I was talking about it the other day when someone was talking about the movie Walk the Line and i naturally started pointing out everything that was incorrect in the movie, which led to the whole story about us knowing the family and band and they flipped out in amazement. Idk i just don't see the big deal of it.